If you are suffering in your search, it’s very probably because you are trying to do something that is impossible. Don’t blame the suffering; don’t blame yourself; blame the impossible task. if someone tells you to do something that seems impossible, trust your instinct, walk away. If someone tells you to do something that you are already doing, give a nod or smile and enjoy the rest of your life. The only thing that is real is what is comfortably possible for you, already.